“Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God, The Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” (Isaiah 40:28-31NIV)
I awoke this morning with the idea of 40 in my head. I was thinking about 40 years in the dessert for the Israelites, and comparing this to our adoption journey. 40 YEARS!!! That’s a long time to wait, wander and just not see an end in sight. Then I thought well we waited, changed programs, waited and searched for a resolution wondering what options were best for us. We looked and searched and nothing seemed to fit. Then I received a lovely email from another young family on an adoption journey (you can read about their journey here: http://www.aharvestofblessing.com/) kinda like ours. They signed up in a program that had just opened back up. Little did we know but it was the same program that we had enrolled in a year ago and hadn’t continued with it because of the delays.
So I prayed and really hoped that this was something that we could now go through with. I talked to Daniel about it he said to find out if it’s something we can enroll in and then we’ll talk. So I emailed and received positive replies, yes this is something that just opened back up, yes you can enroll once you get all the details, yes we can update our files and continue. The EXCITEMENT was growing. So Daniel and I talked he agreed and now we just need to make the payment for our book so that we can start the paperwork.
So back to wandering, I’m not sure we were wandering as much as it felt like. In my job I’m always educating people on the difference between hearing and listening. I’m a call Center trainer and you’ve all been calling somewhere for customer service and the person on the other end of the phone just didn’t listen to what you were saying. So I try to really teach the staff that they need to be actively listening. I sometimes think we do this with God. We hear Him, but are we actually listening to Him? Do we just go through the motions of paperwork or whatever it may be that you’re going through at this point in your life, fill it all out but are not doing it because God was leading you to do it, but more because that’s the right thing to do, or better yet that’s what YOU want to do?
Last year Daniel and I were very led to go with the South Africa Program for adoption. Researched the Country learned all about it then were crushed to hear that the program wasn’t moving forward, but were told of other new programs. The DRC was the only other African country, so we applied, were accepted and then were informed we could not move forward. We were scarred and I’m not going to lie very bitter. Wondering if God really wanted or called us to adopt, wondering why things were not working out for us.
So we are now continuing with the South African Program Through Mission of Tears (http://myadoption.ca/)
As for the verse above, on my search for 40 years in the desert I came upon Isaiah 40 which I thought was very fitting to my story, life and this post. “Do you not know? Have you not heard?” I do know and I have heard, but sometimes I forget. “but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” As long as we hope in the LORD He will renew our strength then we will soar on wings like eagles.
Now to wait on the LORD.